Diary Day 46 – December the 29th

Breakfast: roll=3g, butter=0.1g, 1 banana=0g, blue lady tea=0g

Lunch: 2 rolls=6g, butter=0.2g, selection of ham and cheese=0.6g, blackcurrant tea=0g

Snack: coffee=0g, 1 sl of cheesecake=14g?

Dinner: 2 veg sausage=4.8g, mashed potato=0.5g, red cabbage=0.5g, jelly=0.4g,

Total= 30.1g of sugar

Oh dear, so much for good days 😦

The morning started of fine with an ok breakfast (but see if I’d had my toast with me at work I could have saved on sugar, it’s daft how much of a difference a little change in bread can do!) and after a quiet morning we didn’t want to break into a new loaf of bread for our staff lunches, so we ate the left over rolls – bad choice really of well.

My godmother arrived today from Germany for a visit, so her and mum came out to the coffee shop at 4ish so she could see it and we all sat down for a nice coffee time and I treated myself to the last slice of delish homemade German cheesecake!! Yes slap on the hand, it was soo good though, it’s one of my favourite cakes – I could always eat it!

Anyhow after all was tidied up we drove home to relax and have a nice chat before sitting down for food again, tasty Linda McCarthy veg sausages with red cabbage, mashed potato and salad. My mum had also made delish trifle but I was good an asked her to just put some sugar free jelly in a bowl for me with a few blackberries. So we had more catchup talk till retiring to bed where I’ve been listening to musical songs and wanting to have a sing along haha, I picked the wrong time of day for that. Well good night

Carina xo

Diary Day 45 – December the 28th

Breakfast: banana toastie=1.1g, echinacea&lavender tea=0g

Snack: Sage tea=0g

Lunch: 1 poached egg=0.2g, rocket salad=0g, ham=1g, red cabbage=0.5g,  roast parsnips=0g, tea=0g

Snack: clementine=0g, 1sl of baguette=1g, 1/2 banana=0g, 1 square of chocolate=1.3g, coffee=0g

Dinner: 1 cheese toastie=1.2g

Snack: echinacea&lavender tea=0g, 50g of popcorn=0.25g

Total= 6.65g of sugar

I had a nice lie in this morning only getting up at 10am to enjoy a cup of coffee and a banana toastie in my pj’s infront of the tv.

My late morning was then spent pottering about and helping mum clean the house. I had planned to just have a toastie for lunch, but then mum prepared this yummy ensemble instead, roasted parsnips, a poached egg, some ham, rocket and red cabbage. It was nice to have something healthy but different to yet another toastie and it was warm and delish!

The afternoon was then spent with a cup of coffee watching the end of Black Beauty which was n tv, one one my childhood faves, but god I’d forgotten how sad it is, I shed a lot of tears haha. Afterwards it was time for me to tidy my room. I struggle clearing out, it’s so difficult to chuck things, but I managed to get some stuff chucked and put my Christmas presents away. It was quite nice and relaxed really because once I’d cleared my shelf I put on all my new candles and incense I’d got for Christmas 🙂

For dinner it was just a boring cheese toastie but hey they are quite yummy really. Once my dad and sister were back from the shop and had their dinner too we sat down to watch a few Cosby episodes. The evening was the most challenging because my sister ad received a massive box of Thornton’s chocolates for Christmas and was sharing them around!!!

So I had all these yummy sugar bombs starring in my face, but I was good and refrained and got myself a bowl of salty popcorn instead 🙂

Carina xo

Diary Day 44 – December the 27th

Breakfast: 1 roll=3g, 1 banana=0g, coffee=0g

Snack: 30g of pretzels=0.7g,

Lunch: 2 sl of homemade bread=1.6g, butter=0.1g, aasortment of cheese and ham=0.6g, coffee=0g

Dinner: Chicken Soup=2g, baguette=2g, butter=0.2g

Snack: 70g of crisps=2.5g

Total: 12.7g of sugar

It was back to work today and back to being good (although I haven’t done quite as well as I’d hoped 😦 ). An early start was unwelcome and I was pretty hungry by the time everything was set up and we sat down to have breakfast at the coffee shop, but a warm roll with banana filled me up nicely. The irritating thing though is that recently I have been feeling very queasy, I think it has a lot to do with the constant antibiotic consumption (the annoying thing being I don’t think they have even completely cleared my infection yet either, I mean tomorrow’s my last day taking them – it should be gone by now).

I got a bit of sketching done when there was a quiet period in the morning, which was good, I should really fill all my sketchbooks if I can though and I’m nowhere near close yet!!!! Oh dear these workload nerves ain’t nice!!!!

At around 1pm I was getting quite hungry again, so I snacked on some pretzels and at 1.30pm ish it was quiet enough for us to have a bite of lunch with another cup of coffee. In the afternoon I did a bit of research on laptops as mines on its last legs and I really need to invest in a new one, I’ve narrowed my options down, just need to go to a store and actually have a look at them now.

Anyway, soon enough it was already 4pm and the cleanup process began. We got home and mum had a delish chicken soup waiting for us for dinner. After pottering around for a bit, dad and I then sat down to watch some more Game of Thrones and I snacked on some crisps, I say some, but admittedly my portion was larger than ‘some’.

Well off to bed it was then as I was super tired!

Carina xo

Boxing Day!

Another day filled with couch potato activities and indulging in food before I begin being good again tomorrow haha bad I know.

We all enjoyed a very long lie in and only sat down for breakfast at about 11am I think. And I honestly can’t really recal any particulars haha. It was a chilled day; we did some reading, played a new game (it’s called ‘Them & Us’ and is like a battle of the sexes game where each team has to guess as many stereotypical male/female things related to a given topic, quite funny really) and had a nice coffee time together. My sister left in the evening and I sat down to watch Begin Again with my parents. I’d wanted to watch it in the cinema when it first came out but never got round to it, so I was excited to find it under the Christmas tree, it was a nice film to.

And that’s about the extent of this post cause I can’t remember much more, the days are all burring into one this holiday I keep forgetting what day of the week it is too!

Carina xo

Diary Day 40 – December the 23rd

Breakfast: 1 croissant=4.5g, coffee=0g, jam=8g, butter=0.1g, 1 sl of bread=0.8g, 1 banana=0g

Lunch: 2 toasties: 4 sl of bread=2g, selection of ham&cheese=0.6g,

Snack: Christmas biscuits & stolen=20g (just a guess I’m afraid)

Tea: baguette=4g, butter=0.2g, corn on the cob=0g, lemon&lime=1g

Total: 41.2g of sugar

The day before Christmas (well for us as we celebrate on the 24th) was a nice and relaxed one. We had a yummy family breakfast together before mum and dad went to get a few last minute food things for Christmas and Lisanne (my sister) went to town and I enjoyed a relaxed morning to myself in front of the tv getting some sketches done for uni.

When my sister got back we had a bite of lunch and sat down to watch the Nativity (such a cute movie if you haven’t seen it it’s a lovely family Christmas movie). At 4pmish we my parents got back too and we had a lovely coffee time together before Lisanne left for her boyfriends and I went to have a lovely catch-up with my friend Emily who I hadn’t seen in ages as she’s studying down in London. We went to the local pub and grabbed a bite to eat (well on my part as I hadn’t had tea yet) and talked for ages; I love good long catch-up chats :3

Carina xo

Diary Day 33 – December the 16th

Breakfast: 3 sl of homemade bread=2.4g, butter=0.3g, 1 banana=0g, coffee=0g

Lunch: 2 sl of bread=1.6g, butter=0.2g, cheese=0.1g, 1 clementine=0g,

Snack: 80g of kettles crisps=1g

Dinner: chicken soup=0.5g,

Snack: 6 after eights (oops :/)=46g

Total= 52.1g of sugar

I did want a nice lie in this morning, but I was awake at 8ish and decided to just get up. I had a slice of bread with butter because I was hungry. I sat down in front of the tv to do some knitting and wait for mum to wake up so we could have breakfast together. At 9.30ish mum got up we enjoyed and hour together before she had to get ready and go to her work Christmas lunch.

The rest of the morning was a lazy one watching more tv and getting more knitting done. For lunch I just had some cheese on bread and then sat down to polish some apples for our Christmas tree.

I was still feeling crappy and should probably have gone to bed for a bit but I chilled in front of the tv some more and put a movie in, “The Chorus (Les Choristes)”. Its a fab movie if any of you haven’t seen it; it’s about a man who start a job as the new supervisor at a school for delinquent boys and eventually gains some discipline and trust by teaching them how to sing and forming a choir. It has some beautiful song in it, well worth a watch, it is in French with subtitles however. Anyway I snacked on quite a large portion of crisps (but they were kettles plain salted and a few salt & vinegary ones which both have surprisingly low sugar- woo) and a cup of tea whilst watching the movie.

When my parents got home mum made a chicken broth  which was yummy and soon after dad drove me back to Sunderland. I was quite tired but couldn’t go to sleep yet as I still had to take one dose of medication, so I sat down wrapped some more presents and watched another movie, “Shine”. Another great film, this one centres on the life of a piano player, jumping backwards and forwards through time to reveal how such promising talent was grew to be mentally unstable. Geoffrey Rush gives a brilliant performance in this film and again some lovely music. However, there was still some after eights left from my binge the other week and I couldn’t resit them – so I ate them 6 at 11.5g of sugar per 2! Oh dear!

Carina xo

It May Not Be Easy – But It Will Be Worth It!

I saw this picture on http://addictionplace.net/ and loved it! I love inspirational graphics like this, I may have to post some more 🙂 Anyhow I thought it was relevant image to this post. I have had a very bad past week really, however, I recently weighed myself again and although my latest weigh in does not show as big a loss as my first one I am still proud to say that in 1 month I have nearly lost 1 stone (13lbs to be exact)! I can’t see or feel the difference as of yet but it is the most I have managed to loose in a very long time; I am so pleased and cannot wait for further results! If this isn’t motivation I don’t know what is! I even with my horrid binge week I have still managed to loose – now think what is achievable if I don’t have horrible binge weeks!! I mean if I continue with the rate of loosing roughly 1 stone a month I could be my goal weight of 60kg / 10 stone in about 5 months – that’s April! Maybe for once I will actually be able to go on holiday in the summer and have a healthy body to be proud of. Lets not get exited too fast though, I know weight comes of harder the further you are into your weight-loss journey. However I feel like this can really be a new start towards becoming the person I want to be!

Carina xo

ps. I am documenting my fortnightly weigh-ins on my new page titles My Weight Journey 🙂

 

Diary Day 32 – December the 15th

Snack: sage tea=0g, 1 clementine=0g

Breakfast: 1 1/2 rolls=3.8g, 20g of butter=0.2g, 1 banana=0g, coffee=0g

Lunch: toasties: 4 sl of toast=6g, cheese&ham=0.6g, butter 0.2g, rooibos&green tea tea=0g

Snack: rooibos&green tea tea=og, 1 clementine=0g

Dinner: chicken&bacon salad=3g, pesto=0.4g, spaghetti=3g, 100ml of milk=4.7g

Snack: camomile&honey tea=0g

Total= 21.9g of sugar

I had an early start today as I had to try phone the doctors as soon as they opened to book and emergency appointment, I nearly thought I wouldn’t get one but luckily the doctor on call managed to squeeze me in and confirmed I had tonsillitis – woo! However mum, dad and myself sat down to a nice advent breakfast at 10am.

After which I went to bed finished yesterdays blog and then had a long nap. At 2ish I made some toasties as I was quite peckish and thought they’d fill my craving (which they did) but damn the toast m parents have at 1.5g a slice, it made my sugar count higher than it had to be 😦 I need to bring my own toast home for Christmas! At 4pm ish my parents got back from shopping and we sat down for a cuppa, nice Christmas stolen and biscuits for them, and a clementine for me – yeay!

My dad wanted to take me home sooner rather than later, but I was shattered and went back to bed for a good 2 hours; we wre supposed to leave at 6pm but my mum came in to wake me and suggested it be better I stay home another night, which I’m glad of because everyone in my flat in Sunderland is home for Christmas already and I didn’t want to be by myself. So I went back to bed whilst my parents went shopping again and got me some more wool, so that I could at least get something done on my long list of things to do, namely more knitting, as  I’d run out of wool yesterday.

For tea mum had some bought bacon&chicken salad that needed eating, it wasn’t great sugar wise but I had a little anyhow and then some spaghetti & pesto which was better than I expected, well the pesto anyhow, pasta not super good but ok, although on top of what I’ve eaten today it obvs brought me over my count of 10g also I then really had a raving for some milk, and still do, I know I shouldn’t have but I allowed myself 100ml. So I’m going to post this before I can eat anything else haha, I know I’ll have a tea later, but that’s allowed :p I doubt ‘ll be up much longer anyhow; absolutely shattered!

Carina xo 

Diary Day 31 – December the 14th

Breakfast: Sage tea=0g, 1 1/2 sl of homemade bread=1.2g, butter 0.1g, coffee=0g

Snack: 35g of pretzels=0.8g

Lunch: 2 sl of homemade bread=1.6g, butter=0.1g, assortment of ham&cheese=0.6g, coffee=0g

Snack: sage tea=0g

Dinner: 2 sausage rolls=1.8g, potatoes=0g, carrots=0g

Sack: 35g of crisps=0.7g, 1 piece of 85% dark choc=1.3g, sage tea=0g

Total=8.2g of sugar (woo under 10g – the first in a while!)

I still feel really shitty today and haven’t taken any medicine yet, trying to last this cold, or whatever it is, out again! Got up late so didn’t have time to eat anything before going to work. So once everything was set up and ready we sat down for breakfast together at the shop, I was good for once and stuck to bread and butter and my cup of coffee. A bit later I had a sage tea and snacked on some pretzels.

Lunch was the usual bites of bread and some coffee. And I didn’t snack between lunch and tea so when we got home after work I was starving! The sausage rolls weren’t as bad as I thought they’d be either, so that was good, but I did miss HP sauce, my fave with this sort of meal.

After dinner I rested a while, I was wrapped up in layers and still feeling horrid, head was pounding, throat killing and my nose blocked and aches everywhere haha not nice! My parents and I sat down to watch a bit of the Xfactor final then and I had another sage tea and a few nibbles. Afterwards I went straight to bed absolutely exhausted.

Carina xo

 

Diary Day 30 – December the 13th

‘Breakfast: Clementine=0g, 3 truffles=48g, 35g of crisps=0.7g, cupcake=21g, 1 sl of bread=0.8g, 1 croissant=4.5g, butter=0.1g, jam=8g, coffee=0g

Snack: blackcurrant tea=0g,

Lunch: 1 1/2 sl of homemade bread=1.2g, 1 egg=0.5g, butter=0.1, assortment of cheese&ham=0.6g, coffee=0g

Snack: hot chocolate=25g, marshmallows=20g, 3 biscuits=30g

Dinner: Lasagne=10g,

Snack: 35g of crisps=0.7g, 1 piece of 85% dark choc=1.3g

Total= 172.5g of sugar

The morning started of horribly again with no motivation and a craving for food. Whilst setting up I snacked on a clementine and some crisps and 3 truffles and then we all sat down for breakfast and a cup of coffee before opening the shop. I started writing up yesterdays posts and began to of course feels ashamed at my lack of self control and said to myself right this has to stop! So lunch was ok and I thought my mind was set to start again, but in the afternoon I gave way to a hot chocolate with marshmallows!! Also dad had been getting all the Christmas baking done so I got to try the biscuits, I have no idea how much they were so I’m just guessing!

Once I got home I sat down with a cuppa and ad a nice chat with mum and dad before dinner. I thought I should really only have soup or something to try and make up for earlier, but dinner was lasagne which I absolutely love so I ate it. Mum and dad then left to visit friends and I sat down to watch strictly come dancing and get some knitting done. I got quite a lot done which I’m happy about, nearly half way there!

When my parents got back it was Xfactor semi final time, I haven’t really been following it but my parents have been surprisingly haha. My throat was killing me and I had just been feeling worse and worse as the day went by, so I made myself a sage tea and wanted something to nibble at; there was still cupcakes left and I was going to have one but mum stopped me because she had wanted to give them to neighbours so although annoyed at the time it was better for me cause I got my slightly healthier snacks out and had 35g of crisps and 1 piece of 85% choc. After the Xfactor it was bed time and I felt horrendous so an earlyish night was good.

‘Oh dear!’ is all I am thinking now as I am writing this down this morning! However today has been a good start and will continue to be as you will see later.

Carina xo